..........in pain like a nest....

.................................i needed room to breathe.

somewhere, somewhere inside me to escape.

when I finally found it I was able to settle there, like a bird, a bird inside of a nest

   .....................................peacefully.....................................and content

 but, it hurt others, hurt them when I withrdrew and their hurt became my

pain.

I never wanted to cause pain.

I wanted to feel embraced........................alive........

I needed inside to feel connected to who I am living on this planet I feel too disconnected with

....but it caused pain...

....and that pain makes me feel as though I shall wither away

                                          ... and die.